motherhood

i seem to fall in love with men who are - to a man - children.

they are incapable of seeing other people as anything other than extensions of their egos.

laughing even as i type this. my current paramour, more than 15 years my junior seems to be more patient, wise and able to put others first than any of the men nearly hitting 60.

so what's the reason for my arrested development?

my desire to be a "superwoman" to look after everyone?

here's a warning sign. when you find you are looking after a man - an adult - and he's requiring more attention than the actual under-18 members of your household and helping even less, then you probably need to question your motives.

you can't re-make your messed-up childhood, or re-make his, no matter how hard you try.